I knew I was going to be tired and busy once the baby came, but nothing could have prepared me for just how tired and busy I am. So tired and busy that I often don’t know what day of the week it is, and so tired and busy that I have had no time to write in my blog… though I want to.
I want to write so many things about Mylo. Like how much he has grown in just three weeks! And about his affinity for being held — how he likes to fall asleep over your shoulder. You know he’s asleep once you hear this faint, panting breath in your ear and only then can you lay him down. He also has a deep affinity for my breasts. I’ve always liked my breasts. They’ve been good to me, and now they are being good to him – providing him with nutrients and fuel and life.
And wow is it true what they say about breast feeding helping to shed the pregnancy weight! It’s been three weeks and I’m almost back to my pre-pregnancy weight. Sure it’s demanding and painful at first, but I’ve actually grown to enjoy this special time together.
And what about how Mylo smiled at me for the first time when I was changing him the other day? It nearly froze me in place with the delight!
I want to memorize these early weeks together. I want to memorize each sound, each expression and absorb it – like sunshine, braille or rain – through my skin.